I am Manasseh. I am the prefect love of God. There is too much life force in this body to give up now. I have too much vital energy to throw in the towel.
My dad expressed to me, “The day I can no longer wipe my own butt is the day I pull the plug on my life.” Of course he express these sentiments back when I was still in my finite “Mormon” brain. In my limited understanding of the Right To Die, I rile against him. I demanded to know what gave him the right to played god with his life. Little did I know it was his God-given birthright to do this about anything he wanted to do with his life! My dad has made his life comfortable for himself and for those around him.
Today, I experience for the first time the Oregon Death with Dignity Act. A co-worker friend, a member of the Tigard Home Depot family, chose to take his own life. After a long illness with difficulties breathing and being in a great deal of physical pain, after Ronnie said his good-byes to family and friends, ended his life this morning. I observe somberness, sadness and disturbances in my co-workers this morning when it was announced Ronnie was gone. The disturbances in some of my co-workers who cannot accept the choice Ronnie had made reminded me of the time where I was many years ago. There were some co-workers who were close to Ronnie didn’t come in to work today couldn’t cope with his lost.
In my awakening, I have learned we have the God-given right to choose to end our life at a time when the life force is fading or when the physical body no longer function to serves it purpose in comfort without the use of drugs. I respect Ronnie’s choice and echo my dad’s sentiments, I will be damn if I let someone feed me or wipe my ass at the end of my life. I am no longer a Mormon; I do not need to suffer until the “bitter-shity” end, as Ronnie would say.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Brock Obama
I just watch Brock Obama 30 minute's speech. I had tears in my eyes. Oh my God! If this man is not elected President of United States of America, as a nation, we are in deep Shit.
Brock Obama, You Are God!
Brock Obama, You Are God!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Peter's Truth Revealed
Peter jolted awakes gasping a breath of air. Looking around by cocking his head quickly back and forth.
Peter exclaims, “What happen? Where am I? Where is my beloved community? Where are my beloveds?”
Peter gets up and starts searching for his beloved community. He starts go into fear when he realized he couldn’t find them. He begins to gets upset and angry, thinking they’re avoiding him.
Two months go by with no contact from the Crucible community. Peter wonders if they have forgotten about him. Just as he about to lash out at the community of his longing, a faint and distinct echo enters his heart…
“You treat your daughter this way…”
Peter: “What…? Huh…? Manasseh?”
Manasseh: “Yes Peter, the way you treat your daughter is the way the Universe treats you. You ignore the calls from your baby girl, and the Universe which is your beloved community is going to ignore your calls.”
Peter: “I feel alone, isolated and shut down.”
Manasseh: “Don’t you think your daughter might be feeling the same way… alone, isolated and shut down?”
Peter: “What do I do? Anna-Marie was belligerent to me the last I spoke to her on the phone. I don’t want to talk to someone who is mean to me.”
Manasseh: “Now, you’re making up excuses.”
Peter: “She was degrading me as a human being. I’m not going to be her doormat. Why don’t I feel supported from my higher power?”
Manasseh: “Why don’t you ask for support from the Crucible community with communicating with your daughter?”
Peter: “I thought they’re ignoring me and didn’t want to speak to me until I made contact with Anna-Marie?”
Manasseh: “This is true. But, they are willing to help if you make an effort to follow through and complete your assignments. Speaking of completing your assignments, Gene is discouraged with you for not following through with your assignment with contacting the disable community. The Crucible community… Gene, Anakha and David do not feel the need to hang with someone who doesn’t follow their advice to make them a better person.”
Peter: “If I had made contact with the disable community of Portland, I would have been allowed admittance into the Crucible community?”
Manasseh: “That would have been a possibility. Peter, I don’t you realize you have a problem with finishing your tasks. You have a problem with doing your homework. In the Crucible, there was a lot of homework given out. People were expected to follow through on their tasks. Hell Peter, you didn’t even finish your work in the Mystical Activism community with Martie Geltz and Christine Carter. What makes you think the Crucible community wanted to admit you?”
Peter: “I hurt my knee. I hate doing homework. I think it’s a waste of time when I can do other things. I hate writing papers and doing research on things that do not interest me. I don’t like calling and talking to people on the phone.”
Manasseh: “These are all bullshit excuses. And the Crucible community doesn’t look too lightly on excuses. The Crucible community is all about commitment and following through on that commitment. For this very reason, you were not admitted into the Lover’s Crucible. You just found the answer to your question. As I told you before, we are not separated… We Are One in the same being.”
Manasseh: “Peter, I want to commend you and thank you for honoring your commitment to finishing and posting your blog by your birthday. Your friends, Jeff and Hans are on their way to your house to take you to the beach. Have a wonderful birthday, Peter. Remember, I love you. Your Angles and Guides love you.”
Peter exclaims, “What happen? Where am I? Where is my beloved community? Where are my beloveds?”
Peter gets up and starts searching for his beloved community. He starts go into fear when he realized he couldn’t find them. He begins to gets upset and angry, thinking they’re avoiding him.
Two months go by with no contact from the Crucible community. Peter wonders if they have forgotten about him. Just as he about to lash out at the community of his longing, a faint and distinct echo enters his heart…
“You treat your daughter this way…”
Peter: “What…? Huh…? Manasseh?”
Manasseh: “Yes Peter, the way you treat your daughter is the way the Universe treats you. You ignore the calls from your baby girl, and the Universe which is your beloved community is going to ignore your calls.”
Peter: “I feel alone, isolated and shut down.”
Manasseh: “Don’t you think your daughter might be feeling the same way… alone, isolated and shut down?”
Peter: “What do I do? Anna-Marie was belligerent to me the last I spoke to her on the phone. I don’t want to talk to someone who is mean to me.”
Manasseh: “Now, you’re making up excuses.”
Peter: “She was degrading me as a human being. I’m not going to be her doormat. Why don’t I feel supported from my higher power?”
Manasseh: “Why don’t you ask for support from the Crucible community with communicating with your daughter?”
Peter: “I thought they’re ignoring me and didn’t want to speak to me until I made contact with Anna-Marie?”
Manasseh: “This is true. But, they are willing to help if you make an effort to follow through and complete your assignments. Speaking of completing your assignments, Gene is discouraged with you for not following through with your assignment with contacting the disable community. The Crucible community… Gene, Anakha and David do not feel the need to hang with someone who doesn’t follow their advice to make them a better person.”
Peter: “If I had made contact with the disable community of Portland, I would have been allowed admittance into the Crucible community?”
Manasseh: “That would have been a possibility. Peter, I don’t you realize you have a problem with finishing your tasks. You have a problem with doing your homework. In the Crucible, there was a lot of homework given out. People were expected to follow through on their tasks. Hell Peter, you didn’t even finish your work in the Mystical Activism community with Martie Geltz and Christine Carter. What makes you think the Crucible community wanted to admit you?”
Peter: “I hurt my knee. I hate doing homework. I think it’s a waste of time when I can do other things. I hate writing papers and doing research on things that do not interest me. I don’t like calling and talking to people on the phone.”
Manasseh: “These are all bullshit excuses. And the Crucible community doesn’t look too lightly on excuses. The Crucible community is all about commitment and following through on that commitment. For this very reason, you were not admitted into the Lover’s Crucible. You just found the answer to your question. As I told you before, we are not separated… We Are One in the same being.”
Manasseh: “Peter, I want to commend you and thank you for honoring your commitment to finishing and posting your blog by your birthday. Your friends, Jeff and Hans are on their way to your house to take you to the beach. Have a wonderful birthday, Peter. Remember, I love you. Your Angles and Guides love you.”
Thursday, July 10, 2008
My Story Is Love
I read Anakha’s latest blog this morning and thought to myself; she is so much more advance than I am.
Than the thought occurred to me; why am I comparing myself to her? She have had so much more education and experience in the corporate world.
Than that voice inside my head, the voice I haven’t heard in a while, said… “You do not know the full story.”
What is the full story? All I know is my story. I’ve been told, we not our story. What does that mean, I’m not my story? When I try running my story with others, it doesn’t work anymore… not with me… not with anyone.
What good is my story if I can’t use it anymore? My life has change… I have change, the cells and the DNA in my body have all change. Something inside has shifted. I can no longer use my story as an excuse to get by.
Why can’t I go back to my poor miserable self… to have my pity party? Why can’t I blame or accuse other for my pain and misery? Why can’t I run the sad Mormon with cerebral palsy story?
I guess I go back to sleep… back to my poor miserable self. I do have a choice. But, it will never work the same. I can never be same way again.
The story has change. I now take responsibility for my life… I am now accountable for what happens in my life. I created it. I AM GOD!
I have been transformed into Love… I am love. I am lovable. I am loved. And I am loving.
Than the thought occurred to me; why am I comparing myself to her? She have had so much more education and experience in the corporate world.
Than that voice inside my head, the voice I haven’t heard in a while, said… “You do not know the full story.”
What is the full story? All I know is my story. I’ve been told, we not our story. What does that mean, I’m not my story? When I try running my story with others, it doesn’t work anymore… not with me… not with anyone.
What good is my story if I can’t use it anymore? My life has change… I have change, the cells and the DNA in my body have all change. Something inside has shifted. I can no longer use my story as an excuse to get by.
Why can’t I go back to my poor miserable self… to have my pity party? Why can’t I blame or accuse other for my pain and misery? Why can’t I run the sad Mormon with cerebral palsy story?
I guess I go back to sleep… back to my poor miserable self. I do have a choice. But, it will never work the same. I can never be same way again.
The story has change. I now take responsibility for my life… I am now accountable for what happens in my life. I created it. I AM GOD!
I have been transformed into Love… I am love. I am lovable. I am loved. And I am loving.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
A Moment Of Ecstasy
Peter & Jack sucking faceIn whatever form God shows up as… It is always a joy to be loved by someone. Even Jack knows how to love.
It's sad when you're nothing more than a dead fish. Why would you want to sleep when there so much life to live?... Or when there is so much love to give and to receive.
Peter, this is not the time to fall asleep when there is so much healing work that needs to be done in the world.
There is so much joy in this world, I don't want miss out. I don't want to miss a single moment of the ecstasy.
I love my beloved community. Many Blessings my beloved ones.P.S. Thank you Anakha for the amazing pictures.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Readings From A Psyche
On Sunday evenings, I attend a spiritualist church in SW Portland. The church is held in the home of Geoffrey Knight. The guest intuitive for that evening was Renee Madison.
As Renee was interacting with her audience, she asked us if anyone lost a sweetheart? I reluctantly raise my hand not knowing where this was going.
She continued her line of questing, “Your wife or sweetheart is on the other side?” I nodded.
“She says she’s sorry for hurting you.” Renee continued.
“How do you know it’s her?” I asked.
“She stopped pushing her way through.” Renee reply. “She’s really sorry for making your life tough.”
I was socked and flabbergasted that Sherri was contacting me form the beyond after some seven years following her passing. Sherri Lynn Howard reportedly died in 2000 from Spinal Meningitis brought on by years of substance abuse.
“Why did she wait so long to come through now?” I asked the fast talking medium.
“There’s this thing called guilt. But, she is in a place of healing now. She is only now learning to love who she is.” Renee told her audience.
“Does she want to come back in a another form?” I asked.
“No. Not right now. She is in a place of healing and comfort. She wants to stay in that comfort for a while.” Renee said as she turned away and started a reading for someone else in the audience.
Renee Madison is a remarkable gifted psyche. Many Blessings.
As Renee was interacting with her audience, she asked us if anyone lost a sweetheart? I reluctantly raise my hand not knowing where this was going.
She continued her line of questing, “Your wife or sweetheart is on the other side?” I nodded.
“She says she’s sorry for hurting you.” Renee continued.
“How do you know it’s her?” I asked.
“She stopped pushing her way through.” Renee reply. “She’s really sorry for making your life tough.”
I was socked and flabbergasted that Sherri was contacting me form the beyond after some seven years following her passing. Sherri Lynn Howard reportedly died in 2000 from Spinal Meningitis brought on by years of substance abuse.
“Why did she wait so long to come through now?” I asked the fast talking medium.
“There’s this thing called guilt. But, she is in a place of healing now. She is only now learning to love who she is.” Renee told her audience.
“Does she want to come back in a another form?” I asked.
“No. Not right now. She is in a place of healing and comfort. She wants to stay in that comfort for a while.” Renee said as she turned away and started a reading for someone else in the audience.
Renee Madison is a remarkable gifted psyche. Many Blessings.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
The Journey to the Treasure in the Heart!
The Guru has return! She has return to the Heart. Portland has an undiscovered Guru who teaches the same teachings Yeshua taught some two thousand years ago. Loving what is… Loving yourself… Loving your own body… Loving your circumstance that you’re in… Loving your environment.
Yeshua said, “Know ye not you are gods?” By that he meant you have the power to change your life… your circumstance… your environment. Mahatma Gandhi said, “Be the change you want see.”
Yeshua said, “Know ye not you are gods?” By that he meant you have the power to change your life… your circumstance… your environment. Mahatma Gandhi said, “Be the change you want see.”
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